Another Diet....

Here I go with another diet!!! I thought after december 19th 2005, I would never have to go through this again...but here I am 7 years late doing all these different diets because I lacked the will power to stay on the straight and narrow so to speak. Sometimes I blame it on everything else, I had a baby, I got comfortable, I don't have enough time, just one excuse after another.... The bottom line is it's me!!! I can't help it I'm addicted to food. The fact that I cry when I see myself in the mirror with and without clothes on is just depressing. I try not to complain about things but sometimes it's hard holding it all in! My husband is so supportive and loves me no matter what but he doesn't understand, it's not about how he sees me, it's how I see myself.  I'm doing a juice diet... this is my 3rd day, so far in the first 2 days I have lost 3 lbs. I'm really hoping it continues. I just hate it when someone who has never been fat one day in their life calls themselves "fat". I've been struggling for 32 years of my life... I just wonder....when will I ever get any rest :(